A.D.D.....Assistant Director Disorder

Hello me. Sometimes I get the feeling I am the only one who reads this. I don't post often enough to keep people interested. But if there are others out there, hello to you too. Thanks for tuning in!

Yoy. Its a month into my assistant director position at camp. It started off real good, real productive. It was actually kind of wierd for those reasons. But it didn't quite last and I started slippin a little bit in the focus department. The wednesday meeting was a good refocuser and energizer, but today was a bit of a bad day. I didn't set a schedule ahead of myself and so I kinda meandered through the day. Darren and I had a chat about it, and some of it could be attributed to the fact that friday and monday I was not working but at Grad and then in Edmonton with the Wilson family to pick up Caitlin from her Mission trip to Africa! THAT was a weekend to remember, grad and west ed and the whole bit, it was amazing! Then Caitlin came back after a month! It was so good to see her again, and all things considered, she was pretty..um...un-out of it. Not entirely but... anywayz. So there was that.

But the thing we decided was that the line between my work life and personal life is too blurry. I don't plan enough and when I do I can't stick to it, so my time is spent doing whatever pops into my head, and when I am working, personal things pop into my head and I do them instead of work, and when I am doing personal stuff,
I try to bring work into that to compensate. If that sounds confusing to you, then you will understand that it is confusing to live that way and it results in inefficiency, frustration, and your quality of life diminishes overall.

Thank God that Darren is really good about those things! I apologized for not really being organized and such and for bringing non work stuff into work stuff, and he just said "Kaleb, we knew this would be an issue when we hired you and Kaleb, I know you are going to get there in the end, so its no big deal."

That pretty much made me feel like...good. real good. he could not have said anything more meaningful and reassuring. And he sure could have said something that would have been hurtful. This is an area I am really pretty sensitive about. My Dad gets a lot of stuff done and I never seem to be organized or focused enough to get stuff done, and it is a pretty big frustration for me. So that was about the best thing I could hear.

Its that future grace thing. Darren says that he knows I will make it and this is just part of the process. Kind of like Jesus tells us we will make it and our issues and struggles are just part of the process. Jesus says his yoke is easy and his burden is light, and I think this is what he is talking about. We are gonna make it, so its no big deal. Look forward. Instead of trying to move forward and dragging our identity with us, Jesus says that he is our identity and we find ourselves being drawn more and more to him, not dragging anything, just leaving it behind because its no longer who we are.

thank you Jesus that your yoke is easy and your burden is light. Help me to stop carrying any burden but yours, help me stop trusting my efforts to change and trust yours, help me to stop paving my own way to my perfection and to follow your still small voice gently leading me down the path you set before me.

And keep me humble, so I am able to accept your correction and serve others the way you did.

The best thing about Jesus is its win win. You can't possibly lose, cause even when things are sucky and you sin and you are selfish and you fail, you find yourself at the feet of God. Where you wanted to be in the first place. Evil truly cannot bring you down, only trick you.

Congratulations to all the Graduates this year, thank you Robyn for asking me to go to grad with you, it was an honor and a TON of fun! Mindbender baby, oh yeah. Welcome home Caitlin, it was pretty grand seeing you at the airport when you saw your family.
haha, no clue :)

Gonna run here. Got cousins up from Vancouver, gonna go ask em how the Canucks are doin this year.

BOOO YA! GO OILERS!