Reality
Accepting reality is a difficult thing.
I often live in this dream world where I am this great guy and everything is great all the time. This is ironic because 18 months ago I made a commitment to pretty much cut out all my escapes. I was sick of running and hiding.
Well I have realized a lot these last few months.
Number 1. I realize that the videogames and the music were not my escape, they were just the soundtrack to it. Without them, I still manage to escape into some other world where everything is great and I do not have to deal with everything.
Number 2. I now understand how the man who seeks to find his life will lose it, and what that looks like, and how that sucks.
Number 3. I would rather live in reality than in my dream world. I HATE that place. I utterly abbhor it, and that is because God is not there. God is here. In this world. And as much as I have been trained to hide from reality, I REFUSE to do it any more.
So I am going to clean my room.
posted by ManAlive at 7:00 PM
1 Comments:
sounds like the place i am at. after i cut out what i thought was the problem, the emptyness was still there. so then i filled it with other things. unhappy because nothing seems to work. i can't stand to be alone with myself. when i am still i try to sort things out, and i would rather belive in my own reality than man up.
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