Through the anxiety

This will be short, cause I want to get back to cleaning my room.

I have been feeling very anxious lately, and it is an unnamed anxiety. Even when I am hanging around my friends I feel it. I think I am anxious often actually. Well, today I was with Nathan and Jason, and we've been friends for years, and even playing halo with them I felt uncomfortable. It doesn't make a lot of sense.

Today though, when thinking about it and how it makes me want to get away, A thought came along that said that God was in the anxiety. Its not a problem I have to fix. Its not something I have to run from. God is with me in my anxiety.

What a simple thought. As I type this I wonder at why I would ever need to be reminded of that. And yet I do need to be reminded. Right away when I feel anxious, thoughts come along with that that tell me that God is somewhere else, that I have missed him or what he is doing, things like that. And I panic!

But God is in my anxiety. Oh that I would remember this! He is in my fears, he is in my frustrations, he is in my failures, he is in my garbage, he is in my weakness... HE IS THERE.
And he is ready and able to take me through to the other side.

Oh Jesus! How I wish I trusted you more! Where would I be now lord? That hurts to think about, it hurts so much! And you are there...in that hurt..willing to be with me in that pain. Thank you.