A happy thought

Imagine a sasquatch. Probably about 12 feet tall, covered in hair, huge and muscular, with hands for feet like a monkey. He stands on top of his mountain and hurls giant boulders at travellers while making loud grunting sasquatch sounds.

He smells nice.

Now picture the same thing, only shrunken and miniature, only a foot tall. He is your loyal companion, following you everywhere, biting peoples knees and helping you out however he can. He still makes sasquatch sounds, and he throws golfball sized chunks of ground at people who pass or look at you funny.

And hes really fast.

Still smells good too.

Whenever you are going through a difficult time in life, just think of your sasquatch companion and you will be comforted. If anything, be comforted by the fact that I think about these things fairly often. So don't worry, you probably are as crazy as you think, but its not as bad as some other people you know...

The Devil's deception

He got me.

The enemy comes to steal, kill, and destroy, and he got me. He's been stealing my joy for half a year already. Well now I see it for what it is, and I will no longer allow him to do that, he has no authority over me but what I give him, and I have given him authority.

No more.

The worst part of this is that it took so long for me to realize what was stealing my joy. Thanks to Christian superstition and religious tendencies, when I started noticing this lack of life I started reading my bible more. Then i started trying to pray more, then I started to do other things and fast. I read more books. I became more responsible. Nothing was working, it was only making me feel more guilty. Finally after months of this I finally got it sorted out. I had to dig through a lot of my thoughts and emotions which were a total gong show for the most part. Out of control, in hyper flux. Here there everywhere. Finally I see what is happening and why its happening and what needs to be done, at least for the most part.

I wonder at why it takes us so long to get to that place of understanding, especially when it is something so simple. These things are often so hard to notice, yet when they are exposed it is like MAN, HOW could I not see that!?!? It can be frustrating when we don't see these problems earlier. Yet God is still sovereign over those times, and I believe that he allows us to stumble and allows us to fall into sin and error because it is so humbling when your eyes are opened and you see the truth. Even our sin and error will ultimately bring glory to God, because it humbles us before our father and brings glory to Jesus, because all our error and sin finds its end in Christ.

Our sin and error testifies to the grace of God and our ever present need for a savior, our pain and discomfort through those times point us to the comfort, presence of God, Our waywardness acts as a testimony to the perfection of God's ways and the wisdom embodied in the life of Jesus. Our frustration with sin and error develops a thirst for righteousness, which the bible says will be filled. Our confusion leads us to hold onto what little we do know to be true, and increases our trust. Our confrontation with sin and error points to the power of God at work through us and yields faith in the faithfulness and sufficiency of our LORD. Our victory over sin and error yields thankfulness and praise, and our turning from sin and error are a testimony to forgiveness and repentance.

Whatever you are going through right now points to God. Lets choose to see it that way and recognize our Lord in every situation regardless of how we think or feel.

I would appreciate your prayers as God leads me on to whatever he has in store. Thanks.

The issue...

Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding,
In all your ways aknowledge him and he will make your paths straight. Proverbs 3:5,6

What is so tricky about this is that I feel like I have to understand how to trust him before I can trust him. Aaaaaaah.... do you see the problem there? I am supposedly not to lean on my own understanding! But how do I trust then? Oooooh this is a tricky one. If I can take my brain out of the situation entirely and stop trying to understand this will seem easy enough! But man, that can be hard.

Straight paths. How wondrous would that be? Wooooweeee! I'd like some of them right now!

School is winding down, about 4 weeks left. several essays are due before then, which is what I set out to do just now. Perhaps with a little grace I shall accomplish the task at hand.

Even when it sucks life is still an adventure, full of battles and dreams and joy and pain and trials and rest. And when this story is over, Just like C.S. Lewis says, we shall begin a new adventure that goes on and on forever in which every chapter is better than the last.

Just let that sink in....

May I fix my eyes on eternity and never look back!

normal

I feel normal right now. What an odd place to be. My life is just full of extremes all the time I feel, and it means that life can really take me for a ride, but right now I just feel normal.

and I like it.

So if anyone read my last entry and prayed, I propose a toast to the God who answers prayer. Thank you LORD! What a friend we have in Jesus indeed!

Just felt like blogging this, while in some respects this state of normality is quite a monumental occasion for me, in other ways its actually quite...normal.

more later...

My...Brain...

If anyone reads this, could you please ask God to calm the torrent in my head. Or bring a peace to it at least. Life really is getting out of hand at the moment. I am sitting here in my desk after twenty minutes of trying to do some homework and unable to focus. Too hard, too much on my mind, I need a break from this all, reading break just happened but it didn't help too much I guess. I will try again in a few hours, I am going for a cruise.

Kaleb